Black is White: My Experiences as a Jesuit Priest - Paperback

by Michael Matthew Casey (Author)

This is a memoir of my experiences as a Jesuit, from 1952 to 1969. I am broadcasting live from Mount Golgotha. I experienced the entire Jesuit formation from age 18 to age 34. But four years after ordination to the priesthood I realized that I can't live the Jesuit life, and I left in the middle of the night. But I carried my memories and experiences with me. There is flagellation of the flesh and wearing of penitential chains in imitation of Christ's crown of thorns; there is drunkenness, priestly pederasty, bullying by reactionary Jesuit superiors. A sadistic moral theology teacher (Father Coitus Interruptus, S.J.) pushed me to near breakdown and much sobbing of the guts. My mother's unexpected death from cancer a few months before my ordination to the priesthood is the turning point. When she dies, the Oedipal Temple Veil is rent in two, and there will be no going back to the Old Church and the Old God. Nor do the new gods of Vatican II take heed of my striving for peace of mind. With the Jesuits, always it is shame, unnatural shame from the unnatural vows of poverty, chastity, and obedience, until all belief leaves me. I walk out the door, angry, disgusted, and resentful. But at last I am human, and have a life of my own, and no longer think that black is white.

Author Biography

Michael Casey taught undergraduate philosophy for twenty-seven years at a community college in Oregon. Before that he was in the Jesuit religious order for seventeen years, four as a priest. He has had many jobs: painted railroad bridges for two years, worked as a pot man at a Kaiser Aluminum Reduction plant, a life guard, drove a garbage truck, worked the green chain at various lumber mills in the Northwest. He is divorced, straight, and has two grown children and five grandchildren. Michael lives in Portland, Oregon. He is retired from teaching philosophy at Mount Hood Community College for over 25 years. He published his first book, Where I Came From, in 2012. Black is White, published in 2014, is his second book. You can purchase both books on Amazon.